.: Teary Rainy :.

it was different

that night
i dunno why
i went to his place
just to check up on something
one thing actually..

H.I.M

as i expected
he wasn't there
& all his other things
everything..

so..

i went home

..rainy night..

the weather seem to know how i feel that night
outside the car..
rain started to fill up the atmosphere
while inside..
tears streaming heavily

i couldn't hold the tears any longer
i cried..
all the way back home

while driving back..
i tot alot about him..

his smiles
his voices
his laughter
his jokes
his stories
his ideas about everyting
his preaches
his nonsense
his cheekiness
his upcoming plans
his future
his life..

just about everything

..such a teary rainy night..

hilang semangat
jiwa kacau
otak serabut
patah hati?

E.M.O kah aku?



why?
why must all come to an end?
why must he make that decision?
why hurt me?
why leave me?
why?

rindu?
nak rindu ape?
hari2 depan mata
but still..
too far from my reach
i see him everyday
but..
i can't hold him close
i just can't



lately..
he tried to win my heart back
doing his cheekiness
just like the 1st time we've met
being the person i used to know

but its too late

too late to fix anything
i've moved on
barely..

he knows i'm hurt & upset
he knows i'm angry
he knows well of that..

but what he doesn't know is
i still care..
i'm still hopelessly in L.O.V.E

but i can't show that
i just can't
everything is different now

i must show him i'm ok~
i'm alright
i'm doing well
i'm stronger than ever

i'm just F.I.N.E without him
am i?

he changed..
alot had change the last time i saw him
his status
his position
his environment

one thing for sure
dia dah jadi hak orang lain
mana ada sama dah sekarang..

Dulu boleh la
single mingle
usik2
gurau2
kuar dinner
kuar jalan2
dulu laaa..

sekarang

he's no more AGM..
upgrade to GM now
soon to be SGM in the near future

congrats on that dear..
u deserve it

i wish i could tell how i feel
tell him how much i miss him
how much i want him
how miserable life is without him
how much i need him
how much i care for him
& much, much more

chipsmore?

no more..

dah takdir kot
hmmm.....