.: Shouldn't Happen :.

Guilty?
Sad?
Embarrassed?
Freaked-out?
Bad feeling?
Cold-feet?
Regret?
Stupid?
Selfish?

none of the above can describe what i feel now.
i couldn't think.
nevertheless talk about it.
there's nothing to be said.
i was caught right-handed.
i knew it.
someday.
he will know.
but i don't really know why i'm still doing it.

i made him feel sad.
really-really sad.
suprisingly..
he did not scolded me of my wrong doing.
happy? NO.
glad? NO NO
relief? Hell NO

i just feel bad.

i hurt u.
i also hurt myself.
i hurt our relationship.

i hurt what we have.
i broke ur heart.
i broke my promises.
i broke the pieces we built together.

can i forgive myself?
maybe..not now..
but it will remain in my head for a very-very long time..

i'm sorry.
really-really sorry.

i won't ask u to forgive me.
i won't ask for anything.
since the 1st time we met.
till our love grew stronger & stronger for each other.
i won't.
cos i know.
one day.
u'll give it to me

sincerely.

i love u.
i love u more each passing days.
& i know u love me deeply too.
cos u mention it everyday.

i'm sorry sayang.